Jeeze, I mean, I woke up the morning after my last blog
post, reread it and reread my conversation with SB boy and felt like a moron. I
think I am LOOKING for reasons to push him away, or cast him aside. So I’m
gunna restate what that conversation the other night was really like. He was
sober. The entire time. He actually told me when he was going to start
drinking, and it was way after all of the comments about me going to visit him,
and him coming to visit me, and wanting to spend time with me and this that and
the other. So I kinda felt like an idiot. I mean that doesn’t end the whole, me
not knowing what I want, thing, and the whole, me not wanting to sleep with him
if he’s sleeping with other people, thing. And also, other than the 15-20
minutes after his game on Friday, we really haven’t spent much time together
sober. Which I brought up to him the other night. But that leads me to another
story.
Last May when he came down to visit me, we took a goofy
picture while we were drunkenly waiting for his friend, that had me making an
outrageous “oh my gosh look who I found!” face and him kissing my cheek. Super
cute. But one of his teammates posted on it saying “I think maybe *insert
another spring break member/sb boys roommate here* ‘s song is now your
song.” To which he replied “haha no way man” and I was curious, but didn’t
really think much about it. Well last night I got a comment on a picture we
took Friday night, and it was from the same teammate saying “Hey *SB boy*
I am listening to Spring Break Up right now!” and SB Boy liked it. So I of
course was like, wait wtf?! Cuz, if you know the lyrics to that song, it is
kinda weird. And totally doesn’t describe our situation at all. But I ignored
it until we were randomly on at the same time, and then I just was like “hahaha
spring break up huh?!” and he laughed and immediately explained that they had
given that song to their roommate because he had been obsessed with my friend,
Callie… like creepily obsessed, and she was just interested in a spring break
fling. So he explained that and then said that he guessed his teammate was
trying to peg that on him.
So then my question is… what? How do his teammates know that
much about us? Blah. But while we were talking I joked about us being drunk
asses whenever we were around each other, and he promptly said that we should
change that very soon and go to dinner as ‘sober members of society’. So what
do y’all think, do I give him a chance? Or just toss him aside?
And on the other hand there is the coworker who is into me.
And very cute. But I don’t know how I feel about the whole going on a date with
a coworker thing. Anyone have any experience about that? What do y’all think??
YOU ARE BEING SO SILLY. But I can dig, because I do the same. Look at you and all of your tweets/post. They are all point to, are you ready for this, BUM, BUM, BUM ------ SB BOY!!!!!!!!! I totally understand pushing it away. But please, please, please give this a chance. (: He seems like he could be so good for you. And you seem to be really digging him whether you're ready to admit that to youself or not yet. I think it would be worse to look back and wonder what would have been if you gave him a chance. Just do. (: What would it hurt?
ReplyDeleteI have a really hard time being interested in someone for longer than two weeks, for most of 'em, that's my start pushing them away now barrier. Haha. Subconsciously there's just this flip and I'm done with them. But when a keeper comes along I MAKE myself suck it up in those, I just want to run away from commitment days. Because it is generally just my body/head/heart pushing it away, pushing away something new, that could potentially be scary and invovle real feelings. Push through that, see how you really feel about him. Worth it? I think so. What do you think? (:
At this point in time stuff like that is just a distraction. You could end up anywhere in the country for medical school. Not to mention once you are there its nearly impossible to make most people understand the amount of commitment you will have to school. If you will be matriculating in the summer, if you aren't already seriously involved with someone, I wouldn't even bother with anything serious.
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