A Mess

Well. I have the flu. And now bronchitis. Which led the doctor to look into my records and see that I get an average of 2-3 cases of long lasting bacterial bronchitis a year. Which obviously isn’t normal. So apparently I have a condition called “hyperactive airway disease”… which is basically intermittent asthma left over from when I was a kid. It causes my airways to be super reactive, so anytime I get any type of flu/upper respiratory infection/sinus infection, etc, it turns into bronchitis, which my body cant get rid of, making the doctors think its bacterial. And even then, after I’m on antibiotics, I still wheeze when I run for weeks afterwards, because my airways are still swollen. So he prescribed me a ton of stuff, and instructed me to start using this steroid inhaler whenever I start to get sick to try and prevent these bronchitis episodes.

SO STUPID. Ugh. It’s just one more thing on my plate, eh? Regionals went okay. I got my second event qualification Saturday (I had to win, and I did), and then took 5ths in both events Sunday. Which I’m okay with since I had the full blown flu/bronchitis while competing.

My classes are whooping my ass. I should be writing my physics lab report that’s due tomorrow. But I’m waiting in the pharmacy for my prescriptions, so I figured I would write up a post.

As for boys. There is also one more I forgot to mention. I’m not even gunna give him a name yet, because for right now I am strictly friendzoning him.  He’s Indian, but born in the US, and is really tall and attractive. And really smart (wants to be a neurosurgeon), but young (skipped a grade), and all that. I dunno. Just dunno.

Realizing Coach might be a bad idea, cuz well, he’s my brothers coach. Dentist Boy is still cool. But IDK if he’s actually cute, or if I just cant see past the scrubs and muscles. Who knows.

I’m a mess.

Rough Couple Months

What a rough few months. I’ve been putting off writing this, mainly because the only chances I have had to do it, I’ve been so exhausted I just went to sleep. I’m not really ready to talk about my last couple posts again. We’ll leave that for when I have more energy. I currently have the flu. And regionals this weekend. And I may have contaminated a stock solution while having foggy flu brain and working in my lab. And I have a million papers to grade. So there is that.

I found out I have celiacs disease. I mean, my mom has it, and I knew it was coming. But I dropped down to about 92 pounds, and kept getting progressively sicker. As soon as I went on a gluten free diet, I improved a ton, but I became ultra reactive. Now if I get even a hint of it, or dairy, I get sick. It’s unreal. It sucks. I hate it. I want a damn mac n cheese pizza and a beer!

Schools insane. Between two jobs (one waiting tables, one teacher assisting), a research lab, a sports team, and school, PLUS a Kaplan MCAT class, I am absolutely struggling. Zero social life. Besides the boys. And boy are there a ton of them.

Brief overview on the boy front?

Kryptonite man. I went home for a week in January and saw him. It was amazing. He is amazing. But he’s there and I’m here. And we still talk, and skype, and all that, but distance just isn’t ever gunna cut it for either of us.

Physics boy is just frustrating. He never made a move so I assumed he wasn’t interested. So I friendzoned him. Then found out he was like a virgin, had zero experience with girls, etc. And was like, oh well, there’s that. Completely moved on. And we became super good friends. Then he kissed me! One night after we were studying. I couldn’t even respond cuz I was so like WTF just happened?!?!? And now he’s super awkward because he’s immature as hell. So I’m just annoyed with that. I’m not even interested. He’s so immature and has proven that repeatedly now.

Enter dentist boy. I know I’ve tweeted about him on many occasions, but I met him over a year ago, and we steadily have met a few times, in the library, out and about, and have just casually started to get to know each other (once I figured his name out, super awkward), and today he mentioned possibly going out sometime. So I would definitely be down for that!

Finally, enter Coach. Not my coach, obviously, my brothers. He’s young (late twenties), which is a good bit older than me, but you’d never know. He’s beautiful. BEAUTIFUL. And so sweet. And I absolutely love talking to him. And he’s also my good friends older brother. But I don’t know how that would ever happen. The whole him being my brothers coach thing. But he’s hot, and I would love for it to happen.

The biggest thing right now in my life is getting healthy. This celiacs thing is so much tougher than I ever imagined it to be. And I just need that to get better and life will be so much easier! Sorry for the long delay in posts!  I promise I’ll try to get better!