To Visit or Not To Visit

Alright. So Spring Break Boy drama. Where do I start? The last time I discussed him, we were talking pretty regularly. He was texting me, I was texting him. It was weird. Cuz it was normal. And then I had a wine night with Arizona, and I got WASTED. And by wasted, I mean beyond okay. I hadn’t eaten dinner, and it was just a mess. But I ended up on skype with SB Boy for like 3 or 4 hours, when he had a game the next day. Which is crazy. And I vaguely remember talking to him about his ex, who he dated for like 4 or 5 years. And that they broke up cuz he just couldn’t give her what she wanted, and all that. No big. But that’s all I really remember discussing with him that night. All I know is being really hung over the next day. And waking up and texting him an apology and him going “So should I just ignore all the nice things you said to me?” Which made me worry that I was a little too honest. But I guess I started really analyzing things after that. Because I started to think that I wasn’t really hearing from him, unless I was initiating the conversation. So I just didn’t text him. He favorited some tweets, stuff like that. But I stuck with it, never texted him, and he waited TEN DAYS to finally text me. And let me tell you, I was not very nice when he did. I was pretty cold and blah blah blah. But pretty much straight after texting me he asked if I was planning on going up for his homecoming like I had been planning before. I said I didn’t know, whatever.

We have been back and forth again since then. And he texts me, I text him, whatever. But last weds he got a little tipsy and he said something really sweet, and I went “Sure, I’m sure you tell that to all the girls.” Which is something I definitely have been wondering about. Cuz he is so sweet to me so often. Is he just that way to all girls? Or whats his deal? And he immediately went “Absolutely not (insert full name here). I think you’re a really cool girl. I wish I could spend more time with you, and hopefully I can over winter break when I come home.” So I didn’t respond for quite some time. Cuz I had no idea how to respond. I mean after talking to Arizona she said a) drunk words are sober thoughts, b) sounds like the distance is worrisome to him, c) he obviously is into me. But who the hell knows. And I still don’t know if I should go up there. So that’s my biggest thing right now. Also Thursday night I was again, very drunk, and told him that Arizona thought he was kinda sketchy, which I retracted in the morning, cuz I barely remember what that was about. And he seemed pretty puzzled about it Friday morning. But I’m back to seeing when he texts me again. We’ll see if it’s before Thursday or Friday.

And another thing – If I go visit him, what are his expectations? Cuz God knows I am not having sex with him if he’s sleeping with God only knows how many other girls. I have no problems having a good time, but I just can’t go there, that’s too gross to me. Is he only interested in me cuz it’s a challenge? But why would he still be doing this after 7 months, when he could easily have any girl he wanted up there? And I’ve turned him down multiple times before. Doesn’t seem like a normal MO for a guy.

Do I go or not? What do y’all think? Or should I wait til break when he comes down here?   I have no idea! Now it’s time to stop procrastinating and go study!